Look Away

They pulled him out of the water
He clung onto the rod
They pulled at him
They threw him on the rocks
He was smashed and hurting
Still writhing
They pick him up and collasped his head
He was climbing on their arms
They tore him apart
Till he was still
And I watched
I could not take my eyes off
I could not even blink
There was a feeling of emptiness.

Bad side of me

The bad side of me
The bad side of me watches
The bad side of me wants to feel
The bad side of me wants every moment
The bad side of me wants to experience it all

Why

Why
Why do I wait for him
Why is he still the one
Why is the closest to me
Why is he still everything to me
He has caused so much pain
He has lied to me
He has shut me out
He has made me cry
He has broken my trust
He has left me nowhere
Then
Why do I still want him!

Trust

We are good to break others
But it pains when ours is broken
U broke my trust is fine
But how could he break yours
How could he just walk out on you
Did he not walk out on me
To be with you

Close to me

Why did u get close to me
Why did u build this trust
I used to break down in front of u
I used to talk about my love
I used to talk about my frustration
I used to talk about everything
I was close to you
And u were with my love
Wanting his love
U never told me
And now u are hurt
And u talk about friendship and trust
How do you talk about it
When u cant maintain it yourself
How do you get angry on it
When u break friendships and trust
Is it because what u and he shared
Was more precious in your mind
You say I trusted him
I say I trusted him
I say I trusted you
What did u do
So
Why do u get angry
Why are u hurt

Who to talk too

When u suffer
U suffer alone
Who is there
Right now
I am alone
I can't explain
What I feel
Every day and moment
My head is so full
When I talk
I get solutions
Stop it
Do this
Do that
Maybe they are right
Who do I reach out to
As my own
I know all care
I know they are there
But who can I reach out to
Unconditionally
Who can I just call
And break down to
I am all alone
You suffer alone

Venom

Yes, there is venom
So full of it that it can choke me
It starts to come out when I think of u
I think of the trust and the way it was shattered
I think of the intimacy and how I was kept out of it
Full of venom
I am full of venom
I bite when stirred. 

Breakdowns

When we talk
Everytime we talk
There is a breakdown baby
We hurt one another
We can't see eye to eye
We only want our agenda
I shut down baby
I can't express
When u chase with a force and agenda
It's been like this for years
But it does not change
It is like someone has possessed u
Like you are taken over
And all u want is your point of view
It does not matter
Whether I agree or not
I have to agree
There is no other option
And now
There is no more communication
As all is closed
As I feel broken