Sound sleep

How do you sleep
My darling
So peacefully
So soundly
So gently
While I
Wither away in pain
With Eyes flooding
With churn in my heart
With fire and knots in my belly
How do you sleep
My darling
So peacefully.

Everytime

Everytime I turned my back

There was someone

For comfort

For Sex

For excitment

For intimacy

I now know life with you

Only with someone else 

Always in it

And always whenever I turned my back

Everytime I was not there

Everytime I was gone 

Anywhere

There was someone 

I have always shared with you someone

And I never knew.

Everytime I turned my back around

I woke up

Trembling 

I had a dream

There was a woman 

In my first house

Everytime I was not around

She used to come and stay

You invited her

You talked to her

You played with her

You wanted her there

And then I found out

And U cried

And U came to me

And U wanted me 

U could not see meaning in life without me

But the woman was still there

Everytime I turned my back around

She was always there 

In my house!

Blind

Are u blind
Or you choose to ignore
Can you not see my bleeding heart
Or u choose to ignore
Can you not see the pain
The chaos inside
The tears
The unhappiness
Or you choose to ignore
Pretend its all ok
Blame it on food or chums
Go for a walk
Talk about work
But not touch the main concern
The conversation which I need
Brush it under the carpet
Are u blind
Are u so insensitive
Or u choose to ignore
Because you are scared
To touch the topic
It is a hard conversation
It will tear through us
But you are ok about it tearing through me
I cant choose to ignore anymore
I cant pretend to be ok when I am
I am shut down
But you choose to ignore

-Q