My friend

She came
She loved
She was fun
She was open and lovely
She shared
She did not judge
She became my closest friend
She then made do this for her work
She then made me be there emotionally for her
She then got close to me for information
She then used all resources I had
She then used my trust and love
She treated my life as hers
She then used my house for herself
She then used my house for her plans and parties and people
She then used my man for herself
And she says she loved me.

My Love

my love
my love said u are everything in my life
my love said I have never lied
my love said u are a part of me
my love said his happiness depended on me
my love made promises to me
my love said he exists because I am in his life
my love then fucked my closest friend
my love then then lied to me about it
my love then threw parties for her and her partner
my love then made me hang out with her
my love then made me do things for her and him
my love then bitched about me to her
my love. 

All Alone

Who do I talk to .
Who do I tell.
Who will understand this.
Who will get to the depth of what I feel.
There is no one I can talk to anymore.
I feel pain, anger, despair.
I feel like someone is squeezing me.
And there is no one I can talk to.
No one will get it.
There is not a soul I can make understand how I feel.
Who? Why? There is no anchor I can go to anymore.
There is no one I can talk to anymore.
There is no one I can reach out to anymore.
I am all ALONE

A feeling of Dead

This feeling inside
This feeling is of emptiness
This feeling stays when I step out
This feeling is my companion now
This feeling is everywhere with me.

Talked to me.

If Only you had told me baby
It may have been very different
It did not need to turn out like this
If only u had talked to me baby. 

Give up

There are days I give up
There are days I hold on to
There are days when I am stuck and confused between the two
And thent here are days like today
When u are giving up
When u feel that there cannot be any resolution
When u feel it is too fucked up
When u feel the pain so sharp
When u feel dead
When u feel like the world is collapsing
When u finally feel numb
When u finally feel helpless
When u finially feel drained
U give up!

I can feel me giving up.