My lowest ever in life

I am the lowest ever in life
Is there scope to go lower?
There is
There is
I can think of so much more
I can create a complete drama in the head
I canc reate different scenarios
But right now
It is the lowest of the low
So far for me
Does it get better from here
Anything
In any direction
Should I freeze my eggs
Should I study
Should I do nothing
Which direction to go
Small decisions are hard to take
Right now juggling with
To go travel or stay in bombay
I am at the lowest of my low
It is acceptance to hear
Some one tell u
You are at your shittest in life
Right now
It is messy
And layered
Could not get messier
I wonder
Why did I
Have to deal with such layers
I am sure many do
And I think they go black and white
But here
The dimensions boggle me
It is the shittest and the lowest of the low