I feel

I hear him cold and indifferent
Out tohave food and beer
I can hear the irritation in his voice
Like why the fuck have u called now
Have u not done enough drama
And I called
And called
Why?
I was angry
I was hurting
I was to stay away
I had made up my mind
And I slipped
I was in panic
When I walked intot he house
The walls were closing in on me
I left
I did not know
Where to go
I came home
I could not sit downstairs
I came up
I cant sit here to
I dont know what to do
I cant even leave now
How do I explain
Where I am going
Why am I going
I should have stayed out
And then gone back to the crawling walls
May be sat outside all night
Who would ask
To who do I matter
My head swims
My eyes hurt
And My heart .... it Pains ! I can feel the pain strong
Can u?